Selections from the notebook of Sri Vyaktananda
by Terrence Oldham Barnes
edited by Robert P. Meizer
Poems & Aphorisms
Essays & Reflections
you find the way to god
in each and all tradition
you find the way to peace
in every path you trod
you find the way to emptiness
you find the way to void
you find the way to overcome
your mind, and look at god
you find the way, and not a way
you find yourself is lost
and all you find is destiny
and all that is is fraud
you find the way, yet not the way
you face no future, know no past
you find the way, and know its cost:
your mind to look at god
ADVICE TO WOULD-BE MESSIAHS
There is no place in the desert
to hide from the sun.
There is no way to shelter
in the shade of your own shadow.
If all that is is form, if empty
representations are all that exist
then I can never know my own
non-existence, nor is anything
communicated by the word of
A poem begins in silence,
in silence it ends,
how very like my universe.
INVITATION TO SADHANA
Have at that silent hill,
that 'not' which cradles the numberless words.
Meditation, populous as slumbers and fluttering with form,
give me a mirror and show me how to watch.
I LIKE RAIN
The search for realisation is empty
Let the final suffering be
The givens are all one
where you see a coffin
dead men see nothing
when an eagle nears the sun
all we see is its shadow
What's a philosopher to do?
shadows are used to enlighten
A watched pot may never boil, but an unwatched pot is liable to boil over.
Growth is the process of recovering from what everyone else thinks you are.
Elitists always think themselves the cream floating atop the fresh milk of equity when they are usually just the scum that forms upon the stagnant water of privilege.
I've never understood those people who are surprised to find that irrationality doesn't make sense.
KOAN FOR JUGGLERS
How do you let go of everything without letting go of anything?
PIECED TOGETHER OUT OF OLD DISCONTINUOUS MOMENTS LIKE NOW
Buddha said find
out for yourself
so people came and
asked him how to do it
history repeats itself (but not as
often as you hear that repeated)
the smell of a rose does
not replace its roots
The unmanifest contains the manifest, but the manifest does not contain the unmanifest.
The struggle to be something is unnecessary.
The struggle to not be something is a positive evil.
Freedom lies not in the ability to do whatever you want, but rather in the capacity to want whatever you do.
Looked at one way, the cause of this 'illusion' of individuality is ignorance; looked at another way, it's love.
That indifference does nothing is no surprise.
That love does nothing but balance out the indifference is not expected.
HOW TO LIVE AS A SINGLE NATURAL BEING
(For Charles Olson)
Breathe in and out but live in the space between breaths.
Let your thoughts be breaths and find the space between.
Eat breakfast with friends, and love your enemies because they offer you the opportunity to triumph over them.
Thereafter, benign indifference is the best revenge.
Take a long walk every day even if only in your mind.
Study yourself constantly, but believe yourself never.
Forget whatever you can.
Everything that happens, happens; everything that doesn't happen, doesn't happen.
THE ONLY POEM
How can you ever hope to explain the unexplainable?
You may as well try to give voice to the ineffable.
Far better to speak about the sourgrass in bloom.
Its iridescent yellow flowers bright as day.
There is no revenge against those who laugh at death.