The Obligatory "Story"
My childhood was mostly a paradisiacal idyll in the arms of loving parents, though not without the usual quota of sibling rivalry and cruel playgrounds. My adolescence was mostly a hell realm of despairing thoughts and suicidal behaviors, though not without the usual quota of best friends and hysterical bellylaughs; I hit bottom around 20 and have been getting better ever since. Does "seeking" have anything to do with this biographical data? I would guess not. I've known people who had it all, but were still dissatisfied and took up the "search". I've known people with next to nothing who were far too busy trying to survive to waste any energy on thoughts of "enlightenment". And I've known opposite people as well. I don't think there's any typical biography of a seeker, though some sociologists may not agree. I had my first "religious experience" at 24, went through years of confusion with occasional clearings in the mist. I benefited from the influences of many friends and a few teachers. I outgrew many of my delusions, but still I was seeking some kind of experience (though intellectually I knew that any experience could only be transient). If you want to know how I stopped seeking, here is the Obligatory "Story".